As the tears fall on my keyboard I can't help asking God "WHY?!?!". I'm not asking in an angry way, I'm not mad at God. I know we all make our own choices and must live with the consequences. But Andy was in the process of finding his way to God, he was asking Sally questions about God, she gave him a Bible which he said he did read some. They had gone to church together and the night he died he asked her if God had a plan for his life. Sally assured him God did indeed have a plan for him, which is why his death has come as such a shock. That's why I ask why. Andy was getting there, he was searching. He had a bright smile, great sense of humor and an influential personality. Why let Satan have his way when Andy could have been used here on earth?
There is a part of me that is angry. Not at God, but angry Sally has to deal with the feelings and emotions in the aftermath of Andy's selfish decision. I say selfish because when a person is contemplating suicide, all they can think about is ending their hurt and their problems. They don't think about the utter devastation that one act will leave behind. Not just Sally, but all of his friends, family, brothers, will have to carry around a weight of grief for the rest of their lives. We can give our grief and hurt over to God but we'll never forget that person and the impact he had on us. And giving it over to God isn't an easy road as Satan will constantly remind each and every one of them "Maybe you could have done more" or "It's your fault he's gone, you should have realized something was wrong". As untrue as we know both those statements are, Satan will use those thoughts to drag them down.
Brothers and sisters, I ask that you please lift them all up in prayer. Please specifically pray for those thoughts to be banished, pray for peace of mind for them, and pray for God to keep them protected from Satan's mind games.
Revelation 21:4 ESV
He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.
Psalm 34:18 ESV
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.
Psalm 31:9 ESV
Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am in distress: my eye is wasted from grief, my soul and body also.
Psalm 57:1 NIV
Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy on me, for in you my soul takes refuge. I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until the disaster has passed.